Irony

Life can be full of joy and then suddenly it takes a plunge like no other. And trust me, when that happens… all you can think of is either smashing the annoying person face into a brick wall or smashing yours instead.

Never will I grasp the true meaning of having irony exist but knowing that it does, kind of keeps one on their toes and that somehow gives way to anxiety or even paranoia at times. Today may be a beautiful day and your friends and family all around making you feel so special, so wanted, so loved… the next day it takes a 180 degree turn and they start throwing dirt in your face. And then they come up with this wonderful saying – “I’m only doing this because I care for you…” REALLY??? Aaawww… that’s when you let go of whatever that’s been bugging you for that moment and then have that feeling of security and care restored or should I say insured for that particular moment. But however, what about the moments that linger or resurface again not after 2 or 3 years perhaps even after 8 to 10 years! And when you wish to claim that insured security and care, whoops! It expired! And you’re supposed to forgive and forget and move along with life. Huh.. Life.. or more like what ever the hell that is left of it.

The thing is there is nothing one can do about the pent up feelings that have been already part of a person’s life. If you take that anxiety away, the paranoia, one does not know how to live life any longer. It is those significant emotions that stir or jump starts a person’s actions for living which ever life he or she chooses to lead.

Living life to its fullest maybe an ultimate plan but how we want to live our lives are most of the time - not entirely up to us – YET.

Purpose

It's such an intriguing word - purpose. It embodies both choice and circumstance. Two elements that define our very reason for existing. Living in any society that somehow decides how or what you are has always been a challenge to almost anyone. Our purpose in life is also to a certain extent pre-determined. It takes courage, focus and most importantly a breath of freedom to enable one to explore and discover ones true purpose in life. However, it is easier said than done. People in general are a pleasing race. However, it is a choice to whom they choose to please. Unfortunately, it may be argued that that too would most probably be pre-determined.

Discovering one's purpose may also not be a certain victory as a different circumstance would require a different purpose in one's life. I guess i'm not really making sense now. But that's the whole point of it anyway. My life so far has not been making sense to me and to actually have a certain purpose in my life is not only brain-wrecking but also emotionally "stimulating" as and such when situations in life change that i find myself changing or more precisely adapting to that particular change which occured. My purpose or should i say purposes in life is somewhat challenged and undermined whenever this happens. At the end of the day i find myself being open to anything that could happen and taking it in my stride however wide my stride may be. But let's face it, no matter how much we try to stand firm and hold true to our beliefs and principles (or purpose so to speak), we somehow fall short of living completely up to them. There is only so much one can do and a purpose can always be defined and redefined in it's own way.

As a new year has begun and just like any new beginning , a new purpose is also brought to life. But what is most significant about a life is when a life is driven by a purpose. So to a new year ahead and to all the new beginnings that have begun, here's wishing a purposeful life - a life that although may not make sense most of the time, but with a purpose to living it, makes it all worth while no matter what that purpose may be.